Soo its been soo long since Ive written on this thing more like since high school... But thats always coool...Lets recap my life in a summary....
Well I finally got that tattoo actually I have 4 now and well Im still with the guy that Ive been with for 2 years now and its great I guess... Although we hit a rough patch decided to take a break and agreed not to see anyone...with that said he lied to me and was seeing the girl he works with behind my back and tried to hide it from me and i found out... well now were back together. You know people deserve second chances and well if he blows this theres no more chance theres no 3 strikes your out its 2 strikes and your out...I guess it is true we look for men who have qualities like our fathers because Billy seems to have that trait of cheater etched in him already even though technically he didnt cheat cause we were on a break but he promised he wouldnt see anyone. FYI: My mom found out some how about the whole thing and shes like your stupid for going back out with him and all this bull crap and I really wanted to say it but I didnt, But i almost said well if you knew dad was cheating all this time why the hell did you stay with him for soo long...like who are you calling stupid. but I didnt say anything cause it was mothers day and I didnt wanna make her upset.
Anyways...
College is well, its bcc there isnt much to be said about it except "Hi! welcome to BCC where you can come and experience high school all over again except for the 7 hour class days. Unless your that kind of person who wants to take 7 hours of classes. Well the 2nd semester is almost over thank god cause I am gettin so sick of school it isnt even funny. Like summer needs to come but i have a week so I think Im good for now..
I really really really miss my best friend and lately we have been doing a lot of talking I think its cause sheS on the computer a lot now so we IM eachother all the time but we decided that writing letters was an awesome idea so we are writing letters back and forth to one another. I really wanna experience so much with her but I cant which ultimately sucks... I wanted to beable to graduate with her and go to prom with her but that never happened... There are times when I really wish she was here so I had a shoulder to cry on if I needed it because I think she is the only one who really gets me. Like I would be lost without her.
I realize that I spend way to much time on the couch and not enough time outside... my brother and I decided that were gonna go walking everyday when and if im not working and we have time. I think its a great idea we can motivate eachother to get in shape. My brother is deff becoming one of my best friends like we get along so well and I love him dearly and Im glad I can pretty much tell him anything because sometimes hes the only one who is around to listen...
**I really love my boyfriend but sometimes I just dont know like am I wasting my time, is there someone out there who is better for me am I gonna regret my decision on taking him back. Sometimes I feel like I cant tell him things because he might critize me about what Im upset about or whatever. I just dont know if he really gets me yea we have been together two years but how do I know that he really listens to what I have to say... I should really quiz him on things that he should know about me and see how he rates or something Idk its probably stupid.
I have had this cough and sore throat for over a week aand I dont know whats wrong with me and I should go to the doctor but Im lazy and like Idk... I was supposed to work on mothers day but I called in cause I was not feeling good at all and its like my coughing gets worse at night when Im sleeping cause I will go to bed and wake up an hour later or so and have this coughin fit that lasts about 10minutes and it takes me a while to fall back asleep its just rediculous. I should listen to my best friend and my mom and go to the doctor its probably best....
I have nothing else to talk about at this moment but Im gonna keep writing because thats all I seem to do.
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