Its been a longgg time.

Soo its been soo long since Ive written on this thing more like since high school... But thats always coool...Lets recap my life in a summary....
Well I finally got that tattoo actually I have 4 now and well Im still with the guy that Ive been with for 2 years now and its great I guess... Although we hit a rough patch decided to take a break and agreed not to see anyone...with that said he lied to me and was seeing the girl he works with behind my back and tried to hide it from me and i found out... well now were back together. You know people deserve second chances and well if he blows this theres no more chance theres no 3 strikes your out its 2 strikes and your out...I guess it is true we look for men who have qualities like our fathers because Billy seems to have that trait of cheater etched in him already even though technically he didnt cheat cause we were on a break but he promised he wouldnt see anyone. FYI: My mom found out some how about the whole thing and shes like your stupid for going back out with him and all this bull crap and I really wanted to say it but I didnt, But i almost said well if you knew dad was cheating all this time why the hell did you stay with him for soo long...like who are you calling stupid. but I didnt say anything cause it was mothers day and I didnt wanna make her upset.

Anyways...

College is well, its bcc there isnt much to be said about it except "Hi! welcome to BCC where you can come and experience high school all over again except for the 7 hour class days. Unless your that kind of person who wants to take 7 hours of classes. Well the 2nd semester is almost over thank god cause I am gettin so sick of school it isnt even funny. Like summer needs to come but i have a week so I think Im good for now..

I really really really miss my best friend and lately we have been doing a lot of talking I think its cause sheS on the computer a lot now so we IM eachother all the time but we decided that writing letters was an awesome idea so we are writing letters back and forth to one another. I really wanna experience so much with her but I cant which ultimately sucks... I wanted to beable to graduate with her and go to prom with her but that never happened... There are times when I really wish she was here so I had a shoulder to cry on if I needed it because I think she is the only one who really gets me. Like I would be lost without her.

I realize that I spend way to much time on the couch and not enough time outside... my brother and I decided that were gonna go walking everyday when and if im not working and we have time. I think its a great idea we can motivate eachother to get in shape. My brother is deff becoming one of my best friends like we get along so well and I love him dearly and Im glad I can pretty much tell him anything because sometimes hes the only one who is around to listen...

**I really love my boyfriend but sometimes I just dont know like am I wasting my time, is there someone out there who is better for me am I gonna regret my decision on taking him back. Sometimes I feel like I cant tell him things because he might critize me about what Im upset about or whatever. I just dont know if he really gets me yea we have been together two years but how do I know that he really listens to what I have to say... I should really quiz him on things that he should know about me and see how he rates or something Idk its probably stupid.

I have had this cough and sore throat for over a week aand I dont know whats wrong with me and I should go to the doctor but Im lazy and like Idk... I was supposed to work on mothers day but I called in cause I was not feeling good at all and its like my coughing gets worse at night when Im sleeping cause I will go to bed and wake up an hour later or so and have this coughin fit that lasts about 10minutes and it takes me a while to fall back asleep its just rediculous. I should listen to my best friend and my mom and go to the doctor its probably best....


I have nothing else to talk about at this moment but Im gonna keep writing because thats all I seem to do.

Birthday!!!

Happy birthday to me yay so today I went to school and did the norm then came home and my boyfriend showed up here like 5 minutes after I got to my house which was nice we went over to Johnson City so I could get an estimation on how much the tattoo I want would cost. Lets say its a pretty big shiny penny around 250 dollars. I guess I better start saving. Im excited to get it but I wish I could get it now. Anyways we came back to my house and just hung out. My birthday pretty much sucked I did nothing for it and what I thought I was getting from my dad I didnt get instead I got some clothes I dont want clothes...but whatever. I miss my bestfriend Amanda I really wish she was here because she is the only one I can really tell anything to and she doesn't judge me. I would tell my boyfriend things but I am always afraid that he is just gonna judge me on everything and I don't need that critizism I need support ya know. Anyways I got 20 dollars from my one grandma and Im using that money toward my tattoo and I get paid tomorrow so some of that money is going toward a tattoo if the paycheck is big enough, haha. I just realized in 2 more years I will be able to drink without breaking the law haha. That is fricken awesome. I also realized just now that my bedroom is the biggest mess in the world. There are clothes every where and Make up and stuff....Tornado Brittany hit like 39573875945687465 times this week. I should clean it sometime? haha

Cussing?

So I saw the previews for Dr. Phil this morning and I decide oh this looks interesting you know girls who get kicked off southwest airlines and about some kid who wanted a cuss free week? So what did I do I recorded it. When I got home from school today I watch Dr. Phil and pretty much wanted to punch these girls in their face because they seriously just want a attention from the media and thats it not anything else. That 15 minutes of fame is so exciting you know. Well anyways on it also included this boy who is a freshman in high school and he decided to make a cuss free club... What kind of crap is that? He wants everyone to be cuss free. I am sorry but I cuss a lot when I talk if you have ever been in a conversation with me you have probably heard me say fuck at least I dont know a lot and other various words. It's cool that this kid wants people to change their way of going about saying things. We tend to say these words when we get pissed off and stuff but you know its freedom of speech and as long as your not cause a disruption I don't see the harm in it. So he goes on to say that people who cuss are made out to be very unintelligent and that they have a small vocabulary. That is very steriotypical because I would say that my vocabulary along with many other people is very good and a lot of us are very intelligent. I understand where the kid is coming from when he says its rude because it can be, but if you only do it around your friends and people that don't mind then I think it is just fine and dandy. I wouldn't start dropping the F bomb in front of important people such as business men and women. For example when we go to the power lunch in may no one wants to here you say "Fuck this, that and the other thing." I don't know about you but if you were to go to an interview and talk like that you wouldn't get hired. There is a time and place for cussing, this does not include a professional setting or in front of guests. We do have every right to say what we please but trying to get people not to cuss is some what hard when its pretty much apart of everyone.

Death...

Funerals are probably the most sad yet great things all at the same time. My friends grandfather died and his funeral was today and well it was great cause everyone was sad but you know happy at the same time because this man lived life to the fullest and made each day count. Its just sad that someone so nice and so kind hearted had to die. Its always the good that die you know never the assholes. Why do such nice people get their lives taken? I really wish I knew the answer, but I probably never will. People can make up theories to why it is the way it is but those are just theories they arn't really true. ( Krieg's if you read this, its because I wasn't in school today I had that funeral.) Anyways I did not want to go to the burial I think it would have been to much. My friend Tyler who is in Mrs. Kriegers 11th grade english class his grandfather was a veteran of the Marines I believe. He was such a great guy I met him several times and he was just so kind to everyone. I would really hate to lose any of my grandparents and thats hard for Tyler since he and his grandfather were neighbors and did stuff together. Just thinking about this makes me want to cry. So with that said I am going to end this at that.

Okay I don't care who you think you are and you can say what you want. If by saying that bowling is not a sport you are so wrong. You go out there and bowl 3 games every single day and have a consistant score. You hold a 200 average, I would love to see you try. We work just as hard as any other school team and we put in a lot of time and some of us bowl outside of school bowling so instead of bowling 4 to 5 days a week we bowl 6 to 7 no breaks unless you know a snowday or something. Oh and lets see who has the most stac titles, section titles and state titles yeah the bowlers. Competition is fierce and we are good. Come out and bowl me sometime I'll show you whats good and if you think you can bet on that well bring your cash cause I will be glad to kick your ass.


One last thing for your fun and amusement:

10 reasons to date a bowler
1. We work with multiple balls
2. we know how to hit it hard
3. We always come in at the right angle
4. We know how to pick it up
5. We take a fast approach
6. We know how to bend and stay balanced
7. We like it oily...
8. ....and if its not oily we know how to work it dry
9. We have incredible aim
10. We are great at scoring

I am so sick of highschool.

Its amazing how fast this year is going by and how I can't fucking wait to get the hell out of here...Not that Im leaving town or anything cause Im only going to Front Street University aka BCC, but still the perks of being in college 1. you may not have classes everyday 2. If you do have classes everyday they are not the same ones. 3. you have 1 class for example marketing 2 times a week which there is usually a day in between so you get some time to do that work if you have any. 4. You dont have to deal with stupid ass under classmen anymore. 5. Drama free or at least I hope it will be cause highschool is filled with drama. I would seriously like to congradulate all the drama starters for being the most fucked up morons to ever grace this planet. Then again I wouldn't call it grace because they fucking suck.( I really should watch my language) But when you have stupid people starting stupid shit of this that and the other thing like. "Oh my god she is talking to my ex that means they are gonna date." No you are just paranoid so drop the shit and don't start anything. I really just wish I could beat the shit out of people that start drama and get away with it. --I just realized I spent most of this blog complaining about drama. wow.
Im done.

Today was a fun day. I had travel league this morning and I bowled a 289. Sweet 10 strikes in a row and I blow a 300 because a stupid ten pin. That pretty much pissed me off. But hey it was a good game but I really wanted that 300. Then I had my bowling banquet for the school team and that was a lot of fun...Way to many laughs, I am really gonna miss the team this year I truly can't believe that my senior year is pretty much over its amazing. So I went and watched my boyfriend bowl because that's what I do on Sunday's. For once in my life he bowled worse than I did which I felt I had to rub in because that never happens and he does it to me. I am kinda tired, but I don't want to go to sleep I don't want to go to school tomorrow. Oh well.